I have completed two workouts since Grandma’s—both weight-lifting sessions. Why? I got the result of the MRI on the knee, and now it hurts. I had the MRI 10 days before Grandma’s, but I decided not to get the results until after Grandma’s. I was in pain, but I had had pain for 18 months prior, so I just ignored it.
So the results. A major meniscus tear, calcium deposits (peritendinitis calcarea), and ACL damage. I know when I tore the meniscus in March 2008. I have worked through that, but the ACL and Calcium issue came earlier this year when my knee got torqued abruptly by a human and a dog… I recall that night when I had pain like no other. We assume it was ACL damage that night, and bleeding internally caused the calcium issues. So, that is what caused me not to recover from the meniscus tear.
The level of damage to the ACL will be known during my July 17 surgery. The meniscus will also be cleaned up then. I have been told I will start rehab shortly after the surgery, and it will take 8-12 weeks before I am doing normal activities. Then, I will build back the miles. October... just in time for the cold to start!
What is funny is that I had minimal, manageable pain before I got the results from the MRI. Now, I hurt all the time. I notice it all the time. But really, nothing changed. It is just the mind doing these games.
How I look back at my 100-mile attempt in 2007. Most of the pain that made me quit at 77 miles was there at 50 miles. My mind allowed them to overtake me. I still regret that DNF. That was the last race on a good knee.
What has been so hard is the depressed state from little activity and the letdown of having no real goal any longer after completing the 25-year grandma’s finisher goal… I just cannot get it together. Thank god it is not winter, as I have the pool to keep me sane, barely…
I will be out at Afton at the start. I was going to volunteer officially but decided just to take my camera and float around, taking a few hundred photos to post and share… It will be fun. I sure will want to join the runners (especially those back-of-the-pack friends I miss!), but I know I cannot. At least my mind will not let me.
On another note... My car finally died. By definition, at 150,000 miles, it costs too much to repair. So I finally got new wheels. And it is fun! I needed a lift...
Carry on.
4 comments:
If the new car dies, you could probably place it in the bed of a pick up!
The one good thing about a serious injury is that it usually makes you want to run again, just because you can't. I go through the running blahs every now and then and fortunately, I'm out of them right now. You'll be back before you know it.
I agree with Steve as always. Nice car.
Before my knee surgeries running motivation was tough. After the surgery and recovery once I set a new goal the motivation returned.
I'm glad that you have your surgery and rehab planned so you can get your knee healthy again. The motivation will come with the healing. Until then, enjoy the pool and the super cool car. Keep us updated!
Great car!
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