It has been a hard few months. Work is much more stressful, and I am having a tough time. I am looking forward to my day at the office. But then, almost every day, I go to the office. Since January 1, I have had 43 days off. That sounds great, but that includes all weekends and holidays. Then, if you consider it, 18 days were spent moving my son, and it was a very stressful bike venture with my son. In reality, I have had 25 days off. We had 5 holidays in that period, so that is 20 days. There have been 29 weekends, so do the math.
It has also been harder dealing with life. It is strange how 35 years ago, my friends were getting married. Then, 25 years ago, they were having children. Now, it has come a time when friends are passing away. Think about it—I am in the stage of my life when friends are passing away! Emotionally, I find it hard to have the strong optimism I had for decades.
It is also the time when my parents may pass away at any time. We never knew as they were nearly 80 years old. My father and I have a limited relationship. He still works hard on the farm every day. Each time I see him, he looks more worn. As I age, my anger toward him as a father is less. Fathers do what they can, and we always wonder if it is right or wrong. There is no manual for raising children.
I also had issues with other family members. My sister's son graduated, and there were issues with the party. He had a deadbeat father, and the family structure was weak. This is not due to my sister not trying. She has worked hard for the kids and now grandkids, but the kids still expect so much from her, and they are far from self-sufficient. It is a never-ending issue, and I do not know what to do to help, and that creates anger and issues.
My muscle aches and bones have hurt immensely for the past six weeks. I need 800-1,200 mg of Advil liquid gels for the day. This raises concern for me, yet not sure what the options are to relieve pain.
The bike ride (I was the support) was fun but stressful. For more details, see http://peasebikes.blogspot.com. Basically, he finished a ride that most people could not accomplish.
I have also been taking pictures lately. My favorite from the trip is below. Jordan did ride through the storm in the background!
