Monday, July 31, 2023

Gollllly - life is ...

I have been writing less, doing less, and having less exciting and successful news the past few years.  Seems like a life of work, sleep, eating, and doing it all over again!  

But before I get into Debbie Downer writing, I will write about something good.  I took my work computer away and vacationed for the first time in five years.  I have been losing about two weeks of vacation a year.  Since I decided to retire soon (more on that later), this is an excellent start to transitioning me out.

So, my girlfriend has seven grandkids!  And in the spirit of how we live, they are very active!  We spent a week at Grandview Lodge, six adults and seven kids ages 7 months to 7 years.  Even though it was busy, it had memories—good memories, and that is what keeps the body young!  Here is a photo of the troop!



I also spend a week in North Carolina with my son.  I was able to help with household maintenance, which was a nice break from the monotonous life I led.  While there, I visited one of the oldest abandoned racetracks.  The Historic Occoneechee Speedway Trail!

Here are a few photos:




However, when I returned from each week away, I worked a 65-hour week just to get above water and another 50 hours per week to get caught up.  This emphasizes that it is time to leave, but so much more made me realize I needed to escape. 

Hard to believe the health decline started almost 7 years ago.  Been a fight since.  For the past few years, I have been unsure if it is COVID stress, my very TOXIC workplace, my father's passing, aging, or what, but everything seems a little more complicated, and the mind is less emotionally prepared for an issue.  

My latest trip to the physician made me realize there needs to be a change.  I had been on oral iron supplements for 6 months and had slight improvement.  The oral iron has me in so much stomach pain, but I have all the classic anemia symptoms, and blood work shows the issue.
  • I am tired all the time, but I can't sleep.  Four Advil PMs and I might sleep 4 hours!
  • I have extreme shortness of breath
  • Chest pain is a daily occurrence
  • My hands and feet get cold easily
  • My heart will race
  • For decades, a headache was rare, but now it is widespread
After 6 months, I was hoping for better results, but almost everything is well below the low end of the recommendation.  While nowhere as bad as 2017, it is still clearly creating issues.


So, after I got the June 2023 blood test results showing the less-than-expected increases, I was shocked to have an EKG and to make the following appointment.  



At that appointment, he explained that long-term and untreated anemia puts pressure on the heart, and if untreated, the outlook is bleak.  This was odd as I feel best riding a bike and have a heart rate over 120.  Is the body happy it is getting more oxygen?

So, in a few weeks, I am scheduled for three infusions.  In the past, I had two at one time and another where it was just one.  But now it will be three.  I am hoping it gets me on the right track.  Retiring will also help significantly reduce stress, which does not support the health situation!

As far as employment, I know there are changes in workplaces all the time, but to have over 33% of all employees new within two years.  In my division, 70 percent of all employees who have not been in their position for two years should say something when it is caused by people being unhappy and quitting.  But it always seems to stay the same.  My workplace is so bad I decided to retire well before 62, and I hope to succeed financially.  If I do not leave that hell hole soon, I will die.  I have no doubt that it would kill me to stay for a few more years.  That is one of the very few accurate outcomes that I can control.  My job has been posted and should be filled in the next few weeks.  Then, I will take time to train the new supervisor in my role.  When that is finished, it will be retirement!

May the infusions work (the first one is in the middle of August), the ticker gets better, and the reduced stress will make life much more enjoyable!



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