We also have an election tonight. I, for one, have been nervous about the state of America. I see both major parties to far left or too far right. There is excessive anger abound with people hating each other over a political belief. That was usually reserved for religion. The world is changing in ways I fear.
I am also near an anniversary. An anniversary of a traumatic event in life that reactivates thoughts and feelings from the actual event. Each November, I experience peaks of anxiety and depression. I remember events clearly and l feel emotions more intensely than the actual event. While I know reliving the sadness is a very natural part of a healing process, it has been over two decades and I realize there is no one right way to heal or maybe I will never recover.
I keep trying to find healthy ways to cope with stress and distress. Writing is one way that helps, so I have been writing more using another source. I do not share memories and feelings with someone I trust, which I hear would help. While I know, activities that allow my mind to focus on something other than these memories are a good coping strategy, yet that has been my employment. The stress from work is excesive; it only makes the frequent chest pains more challenging to handle. Stress for ma also results in impulsive eating and weight gain. I am now at the easiest I have ever been in my life. I feel trapped. I sleep an average of 4 hours a night and average near well over 60 hour weeks at work. Below are typical sleep patterns from my sleep monitor software.
I am also near an anniversary. An anniversary of a traumatic event in life that reactivates thoughts and feelings from the actual event. Each November, I experience peaks of anxiety and depression. I remember events clearly and l feel emotions more intensely than the actual event. While I know reliving the sadness is a very natural part of a healing process, it has been over two decades and I realize there is no one right way to heal or maybe I will never recover.
I keep trying to find healthy ways to cope with stress and distress. Writing is one way that helps, so I have been writing more using another source. I do not share memories and feelings with someone I trust, which I hear would help. While I know, activities that allow my mind to focus on something other than these memories are a good coping strategy, yet that has been my employment. The stress from work is excesive; it only makes the frequent chest pains more challenging to handle. Stress for ma also results in impulsive eating and weight gain. I am now at the easiest I have ever been in my life. I feel trapped. I sleep an average of 4 hours a night and average near well over 60 hour weeks at work. Below are typical sleep patterns from my sleep monitor software.
I try contemplative activities like reading, thinking, or just taking a walk are also a right approach. Walking is painful, so that is an issue. I am fortunate I do not drink or use drugs, which is the choice for many. I am going to try to do a water workout, as I know the best way to get through November is to get exercise. I know this but too tired and sore to get going. I need to find strength. I need to get through the next six weeks. I fear that it will be hard. However, I have always been told that fear is a useless emotion. I need to focus on that fact!
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