SHIT, how did I get here? I can't find my way out. Some have heard me complain about my life, and I am sure it is shitty to read. Why bother? I have a great life but can't see that right now.
A decade ago, I loved going to work. I worked hard to support my employer's needs and lived check to check. I often wondered if I could feed my child and myself. I was doing everything I could to make ends meet. I was happy.
Now, I make twice as much a month as I need to live on; I have no debt and hate going to work. Why? I do not know. I know I am getting lost in the hustle and bustle and not sure what I want anymore from this life. As I wrote earlier, I have several friends who commit suicide. I know one man who did this after his kids grew up and had little care or concern for him. A loving girlfriend saves me. But this is hard to accept as I believe I am a burden to her! I am concerned.
Anyway, sleep has been poor. I was three to four times a night. My stomach is in pain often. I need to get back to health somehow. But How?
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